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I sort of live on logic reguardless of truth. That is, what i do has a reason. I work out to swim harder. I learn a lot to one day become an engineer.
I think logic is the basis for all of my actions, reguardless of how stupid they are. If i don't know the logic, i'm sure somewhere in my mind it's already there.
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The fillins are reward and willingness. When it comes down to it, it just makes sense that most people go out of their comfort zone and take risks to get things which they aquire. And if a person really wants to do something, they by all means should do it (as long as it's within reason).
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So about three days ago, I stumbled across some ancient practice called Tulpamancy. The idea is that a person can, with an incredible amount of focus, teach their mind to create an alternate consciousness, one independent of the original yet experiencing most if not all of the same memories.
I'm smart, so i know I can do it with enough commitment.
I'm having trouble finding people who i can really trust to be true friends with me, so it's incredibly appealing as an idea to me.
And so many other things have all clicked. I've made ocs before who shared bodies, and had thoughts about having a narrator of sorts to communicate with.
If anything, there's also such a strange pull to the idea that I get whenever I research it. I'm not that superstitious since I'm christian, but it seems suspiciously like fate, i guess.
I'm almost dead set on the idea at this point. I have the info i need, i know the risks, and i know the commitment. So since I can't think of a better place to discuss this development, I'm blogging about it here.
Who knows? I might end up being a guide to someone else out there who has been turned away from those around them so many times.
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Is solving lonliness with your own mind a good idea? Maybe not. But i want to have that kind of trust to put in someone, even if they're in (our?) head with me.