So about three days ago, I stumbled across some ancient practice called Tulpamancy. The idea is that a person can, with an incredible amount of focus, teach their mind to create an alternate consciousness, one independent of the original yet experiencing most if not all of the same memories.

I'm smart, so i know I can do it with enough commitment.
I'm having trouble finding people who i can really trust to be true friends with me, so it's incredibly appealing as an idea to me.
And so many other things have all clicked. I've made ocs before who shared bodies, and had thoughts about having a narrator of sorts to communicate with.

If anything, there's also such a strange pull to the idea that I get whenever I research it. I'm not that superstitious since I'm christian, but it seems suspiciously like fate, i guess.

I'm almost dead set on the idea at this point. I have the info i need, i know the risks, and i know the commitment. So since I can't think of a better place to discuss this development, I'm blogging about it here.

Who knows? I might end up being a guide to someone else out there who has been turned away from those around them so many times.