soweliMunLukin

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toki. mi sowelipml (soweli [mun lukin])

Hi, I'm soweli [mun lukin]. I hope you're having a good day.

I'm trying to work on a bunch of things. I'll talk about them here. If you want to listen, neat! If not, also cool. I'll still talk to you if you want.
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[?]soweliMunLukin »
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Day -1 night: I think i'm starting tomorrow i guess

Plan is to mainly follow one of the bigger guides while keeping the rest in mind. Only thing is, i need a base for the tulpa and i think that's what i'm gonna spend part of or all of tomorrow working on

Read some posession thing directed at tulpas and felt such a weird feeling afterwards. Doesn't seem important but noting it reguardless in case it becomes important

I think i want to name them Ecco, also Soweli [Kama Pona]. Ecco as a name just clicks, like whenever i think of tulpas the name Ecco comes to mind. As for the tokipona name, I kept my headname of mammal (after all, aren't we a system in one body?) And the actual name means "Coming Good". I mean, i at least hope it becomes good for us

Of course Ecco can decide to change their name once they can speak with me, I just have to keep working on it

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[?]soweliMunLukin »
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Traits. Augh. The fun stuff but it's hard to really decide where the base should be. At the very least, I want to at least put childishness, hopefulness, and confidence in that list. I'll need to refine that though.

It may be just me, but i think a lot about interactions with Ecco. I'm afraid I might miss cues because of these expectations I'm accidentally setting or Ecco might see a need to become exactly what i'm accidentally imagining them be. I don't want either of those

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    [?]soweliMunLukin »
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    And also form. To be honest, I'm just thinking white sphere to help combat my inability to focus with something simple. I may try also having a scent to use when focusing so i can create a thoughtknot of sorts

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      [?]soweliMunLukin »
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      Is 3d printing a sphere a bad idea here? Like if i make something i accept isn't sentient do i accidentally associate it with Ecco

      augh gonna have to do more research

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        [?]soweliMunLukin »
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        The word "us" when referring to me and Ecco has such this unique feeling. I feel weird because, well, it's just been me for all this time, but there's such this calming feeling about there being two of us. Even if they're as scared as I am of everything I go through... I'm sure we'll be fine.

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          [?]soweliMunLukin »
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          One last post. I have to go to bed sometime, but at the same time I want to share my experience as much as I can.

          Browsing reddit... is scary. r/plural is filled with nothing but system problems and very few solutions. Granted, I only intend to have one headmate, but with how many can form from the looks of it, I get afraid of maybe switching one day and being on the backburner forever.

          It's not stopping me. It's just something to consider... something to make Ecco aware of. One mind can only do so much before it falls apart, and two consciousnesses is already a slight overclock.

          Also, I want to try and further my faith while I develop Ecco. I want them to be with me in eternity. Maybe that's such a delusional thing to say about someone who doesn't exist yet, but I sort of feel like I care for them before they even exist.

          On the topic of improvements, I've been trying to fix relationships around me and be kinder to those I know. I've been a little more productive too. There's this bird in my room that I hardly care (yet still provide for) for that I started paying a lot more attention to, for example.

          I keep thinking "for the tulpa" for some reason. It's motivating.

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